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Robertrogo
01-03-2012, 05:47 AM
Hello All,

I just wanted to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR! and hope that everyone had a safe and fun holiday!

As we all enter the year 2012, we all have our own resolutions, our goals, our motivations, our drives and desires to make this year better than the previous one, throw out 2011 and bring in 2012 with a bang.

I myself have many goals and resolutions for myself to make 2012 a better year for myself mentally, personally, spiritually and physically. For those everyone says the one thing they want to make of themselves for a resolution in the new year is to get fit and in shape, to get that six pack and become super attractive to all the ladies or guys. I would say this is one for myself but my resolutions go far beyond just wanting to be fit and attractive to the other sex but I want to work on my internals, my mentality, my hobbies and learning new skills and techniques to benefit me in life and to make me extremely happy. This might be a very long list as there is MUCH I want to do in 2012, there is much I want to do to make myself happy, to become a better person, friend, family member and human being, to become much more skilled and savvy with things around me and the things I do and become somebody who doesn't hold back from what they want in this world.

2011 was a very happy, confusing, hellish, heartbreaking and recovering year for me as I got my job at JEFIT, got my first car, experienced extreme heartbreak and had to overcome odds, sadness and many obstacles to learn who I am again by getting back into the gym, making new friends, managing my new single life, my apartment, and becoming a much more self reliable adult. These changes are giving me the desire to keep this trend forward and to make 2012 better than it could ever be for myself.

* There is a bit of language in this post (minor little curse words) and I do apologize for these uses but it is helping me vent and bring forth my resolutions and feel better about myself. Nothing too crazy or offensive in any way but just a notice for this post for those who read it *


1.) Physically fit and happy -

Of course this is something everyone wants in this world is to be physically fit and happy with themselves, to becomes stronger, healthier, have a six pack or a toned body and feel like they are attractive to them and the opposite sex. This is what I desire and going to work on every single day as it is part of my job but it is a hobby that makes me happy and feel more confident/desirable with myself. In 2011 I mostly woke up for work, came home, took care of the apartment, dog and other responsibilities I had and never really focused upon working out and getting into shape, which I put on some weight which I knew that I did but wasn't happy at all with this weight gain I was going through. After my breakup with my EX, I put it right into my mind that I was going right back into the gym and becoming who I was again at 18-19 years old where I was in the midst of gaining my six pack, was benching close to 315lbs and was an intense bodybuilder and extremely happy who I was and who I was becoming. Right now I currently sit at a happy and healthy 190 pounds of muscle and want to say I have around now 11 - 12% of body fat, but still need to get rid of some, my endurance and stamina are through the roof and pushing myself harder than ever to lift heavier weights, reaching new 1RMs and personal goals, focusing more on legs and form and doing workouts correctly. Even at times when I don't workout with my partner I do endurance sessions of tri-setting my workouts, I want to build and have a healthier and toner body then I have ever had before.

2.) Be more outgoing, sociable, talkative, and not socially awkward (Life of the party)

Yea I miss that feeling as I was always outgoing, sociable and extremely talkative. Now I feel like I am lacking in that department and becoming socially awkward at times which indeed sucks, as I want to be able to carry a conversation without problems and let things flow naturally as I was able to do before. This is a MAJOR goal of mine to push forward above my reservations of myself and what I say and just let things flow naturally, stop being soo shy and reserved and go out there, take the bull by the horns and let things out and about. I want to be that life of the party once again that I used to be and not let things hold me back or stop me.

3.) Learn to be trusting again with others

After my breakup I have been weary of getting involved and interacting with certain people but as of late I have been extremely open and outgoing. I just want to break that feeling of how can I trust this person and know they won’t hurt me vibe/feeling at times that I get. I gave all of my trust to somebody before to have it quickly destroyed and ripped away in a matter of moments without any regret from the other person.

4.) Gain back my ability for telling jokes and being quick/savvy with comebacks

When I was younger (which sounds stupid because I am only 23) but back in high school and throughout most of college I could tell jokes and be extremely slick and sly with my comments, generating laughs with ease (my inspiration was Mitch Hedberg, Dane Cook, Chevy Chase, Jim Carey and many other Comedians) that I felt and knew I was the life of the party. Now I think about jokes before I say them and sometimes feel awkward when I say a joke and only get a few laughs of out of it. It actually takes me a while to come up with a witty comment or joke when before it came out in a heartbeat without any thought or second guessing and it was amazing. I miss that ability and feeling that I had previously and want to regain that skill I used to have.

5.) Start playing guitar and get a drum set

Well the one thing that is weird about me is that I don’t have a guitar or drum set but when I listen to music I can understand when certain riffs should be in place in a song (rock song or so forth), I can understand the double bass and drumming in a song and actually can come up with ideas of how a song could go in a different direction if I was playing the song for that band. It is weird because I have played drums at my cousin’s house and so on but I want my own drum set and to push myself to learn new instruments. I can’t tell if it is my ability to understand songs and music or what it is but its like I have a feeling I can write music, understand drum beats and over all beats for a song as well as placements of guitar parts without having played a single instrument. When I listen to rock songs I can move my feet to the beat just like playing a double bass drum set up and at times pinpoint all beats perfectly which gives me the drive and passion to get a drum set and start my skills. I have learned a bit of guitar from my friends Tim and Mike and have learned to play some openings to songs and a bit of Incubus’s “Drive” but I want to have my own acoustic and electric guitar to start playing soft and hard rock songs and even potentially write my own for my passion of music.

6.) More back-end coding and programming

With my profession I am listed as a front end web developer but I want to learn more back end coding, more usage of Java, PHP, MySQL, C++ and so forth to benefit my coding and programming skills to benefit this company and myself that much more. Become a valuable asset along with my designing and visual skills.

7.) Learn music mixing and editing

For some reason I want to be able to start making songs and even just a demo album for myself just like my favorite artist Celldweller (which is one man playing all instruments, mixing and editing his own music and selling songs/giving away songs) for his passion of music. That is what I want to do and being able to mix my own music and create songs would be a dream come true, playing chords, writing music and then being able to mix them the way I want to for others to listen would be incredible and give me another outlet for my creativity and passion for music.

8.) Work more with my video editing skills

I am EXTREMELY PROFICIENT in Adobe After Effects and Final Cut Pro and I want to start working more on editing videos, motion graphics, music videos and so forth. Expand my repertoire for what I can do and accomplish and add more to my professional portfolio whether that be a cool mixed video for JEFIT like a tutorial video, a teaser for new features and functions for you guys, or even get videos of the JEFIT Team performing custom exercises for our upcoming custom exercise database. I don’t want to lose these skills at all because I am not just a Web Developer or Graphic Designer but I went to school for Digital Design which I am able to do animation, motion graphics, video editing, sound editing, photoshop and pictures, photography, coding for web development and web design and want to learn more programming. Also my professional writing skills have been helping me out as well with my approach to JEFIT and handling customer service.

**Some work that I have done**

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These are just some pieces that I have done in college which are very basic as it was the beginning of my video work with After Effects but I want to continue working on these pieces and take them further

Robertrogo
01-03-2012, 05:48 AM
9.) Manage money much better

I am fantastic with managing my money and spending my money correctly on bills, on what I need and want and still having money left over to save but I want to be much better with managing money for my future expenses and to know that I am going to have money to save up and do things in the future. Yes I am living in the moment now and spending money on things I want, clothes, concert tickets, supplements, going out with friends and so forth but I want to have extra money so I don’t have to worry about needing money when something happens or I am stuck in a precarious situation.

10.) Dress much cleaner and professionally, attractively.

Well lately I have gotten some new clothes, more designer and arsis in a way, that helps me feel like I am myself once again, with some new shoes and everything but I want to start dressing much cleaner, nicer, professionally and of course for the ladies attractively. The one thing that is an issue for me is that I am such a big guy (muscular wise) with a large chest that pushes the shirt out and then my back slants downward and inward making the shirts look larger than they need to be or even at times tighter than they actually are and can never find a happy medium, I mean some button downs I have are nice but look bigger on me than should be and it bums me out, thus makes me feel less confident about myself, of course that one sucks as well but just have to work around it though and doing my best to look more professional and clean looking to appeal to myself and others.

11.) Go to more concerts, even by myself if need be

I absolutely love music, I love concerts and going to see bands play (Actually going to go and see the Red Hot Chili Peppers on January 27th with my friend Tim who I haven’t seen in 2 years and hopefully go and see Dance Gavin Dance/A Lot Like Birds on February 7th or 8th I believe) but I want to start going to more concerts in the area, even if it is a local band, I want to get myself out there to listen to more music, enjoy myself in a crowd, hear my favorite band play my favorite songs, dance, jump, hop in the mosh pit, whatever but enjoy live music and get crazy. I usually never go to live concerts at all because I never had the money but now with my job, the extra time that I have and a vehicle to get around with, I now have the options to be able to go to these events and have a great time with friends or even by myself and meet new people who have the same common interests and passion for the band or music we are about to listen to. Some bands I want to see in 2012 are HIM, Slipknot, Metallica, Pendulum, Celldweller, Dance Gavin Dance, if Daft Punk returns this year then Daft Punk and even go to some dub step dance parties with Skrillex and other Dub Step/Electronica artists.

12.) Less time goofing around and more on goals and desires

Well this is a kind of different approach as when I broke up with my ex I started going out more and doing things with friends which is fantastic of course during the weekends but at times I want to spread out my time partying, goofing around and going out and being able to focus upon at times, things that I want to do, things that are going to make me a better person, further my career and my skills, even possibly focus on hobbies but I love spending time with friends. Not abandoning people at all but being able to focus on some goals and desires that I have for myself and for what I want to do in life.

13.) Learn more mix martial arts

Honestly I love UFC and MMA all around, my cousin’s actually participate in UFC style fights and have taught me a few moves and sparred with them when I visited during spring break. I want to be able to add more defensive moves to my size and my agility as being able to fight is one thing but defend yourself and those around you in any situation is extremely important for myself .

14.) Hone my skateboarding skills further

I absolutely love skateboarding and use to skate all of the time back at home in NY and in Philly, I am able to kickflip, varial kickflip, big spin, pop shove it and so forth but I want to learn/land the 360/Tre Flip, Heelflip, Varial Heelflip, Nollie Heelflip, Lazer Flip and some grinds as well. I got my parents to bring down my skateboards from home and going to start skating more when it gets warmer outside but I feel that skating was a outward approach of my expression of freedom and learning new skills. Though sometimes it made me angry when I couldn’t land a trick after multiple times, it brought me intense motivation to keep working my ass off to land that trick and once I finally did I felt such success and happiness, especially after my first kickflip that I landed, pain in the ass too. I watch this video every time I go out skating and Mike Mo Capaldi is one of my major inspirations when I skate.

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15.) Travel more around the country, road trips or go overseas to Europe

I have already done a few road trips already with my new car and I want to start going on more trips since I still have an extra 8,000 – 9,000 miles left in my lease for this year to drive with until I get a brand new 12,000 miles added in July and I want to go to some concerts possibly in Chicago, Bonaroo, Ozzfest, and a few others, even possibly make my way to visit family in Texas, my best friend in Maryland and so forth. I want to see what else is in this country because I have been in NY, Philly, Miami, Tampa, Orlando, Cary, Raleigh, in Maryland and Virginia but I want to go around to the west coast some more, see more around the country or even take a week trip to Europe and see what the rest of the world is like. I love to travel and get out and about and I feel that traveling more will open my eyes up to the world around me and see what else this world has to offer.

16.) Waking up at 4 or 5 A.M to get my day started off the right way

Many of you will think that I am absolutely crazy and out of my mind for this one, except for Justin haha, but in all honesty I want to start off my day extremely early, I feel that by getting up early and giving myself 2 -3 hours before work to do things, relax, go to the gym, just mellow out and relax will make my day better and get a fresh start and aspect on life. They say success never sleeps and when I am sleeping, I am not achieving success and doing more things with my day. By sleeping the recommend 7 – 8 hours is nice and all but to have an extra 2 -3 hours to my day will help me feel more productive and not that I am wasting my day away trying to get as much sleep as I can before work.

17.) Less wasting time, more using it to my advantage

This is a major issue at times for myself as I do spend a lot of time goofing off around the apartment and with my days off, or even when I get home from work and the gym and never get to doing things that are going to benefit me, make me happy, or even relax. Sometimes when I need to get things done, my mind slips elsewhere and nothing gets done at all which then when I realize that I haven’t gotten squat done, I get frustrated which is a huge bummer of course. I have to start managing my time better like I did in college with all of the work I had waking up at 4 or 5 ever morning, getting work done, being productive and enjoying my day knowing I have done more than I should have and benefitted from not goofing off.

18.) No napping or sleeping in late

I hate wasting days away and taking naps either in the afternoon or not even waking up till 11am or so on the weekends. There are so many things that I want to do during the weekend and taking naps and sleeping late inhibit my ability to enjoy the day and lose out on what I want to do during the weekend, whether that be going to the gym early, going out and skateboarding, doing errands and chores, taking a road trip up to visit some friends, go into the city or even go to the beach or Charlotte or do anything and everything I want during the time I have for myself.

19.) Take some singing courses/classes

When I was little I used to sing all of the time in chorus, at home, in selective chorus and did a few songs in school but never fully was able to go forward with my voice and try to sing. I always wanted to take lessons to learn how to correctly/professionally sing, use my diaphragm to put emphasis and power on my voice and to sound well, being able to hold out notes and feel confident when I sing around others, even possibly do karaoke at bars without feeling like a dork haha.

Robertrogo
01-03-2012, 05:49 AM
20.) Finish some After Effects movies I was working on

21.) Completely decorate my apartment

As now that I have my own apartment since my ex moved out, I want to finish decorating up the rest of my apartment the way that I want to, get more neon beer signs, posters, frame my college degree, get some black lights, some shelves for my stereo and possibly a wall mount for my TV, just go all out and do what I want to make myself happy in my new home. Previously when living with my ex I barely had anything that was “mine” in the apartment, yes I had my computer, my TV and so forth but never had my own bed, my own couch, or anything at all, everything was hers and now since this is my own, I am working full time at JEFIT, dedicating myself to the business, this application and everything, I want to make the home I live in my own, to decorate it the way I want to, to throw a party and have people over and feel confident to show off my home that I live in. (I will add pictures of what I currently have right now of course and the final results when I finally finish my decorating of my apartment).

22.) Discover new music

I am extremely passionate about music and love all types of music but I want to discover new bands, new genres, listen to new things to expand my mind about what music is, what makes an artist, what makes a song and to understand the way of music that much more.

23.) Go to more raves and dance concerts

I used to go to raves all of the time and I absolutely love dancing. I love dancing and understanding the beats and being able to groove along with the beats and sounds that are being played. Going to a rave was an absolute eye opener for myself and understanding my passion for techno music and dancing. Just letting loose, having a great time, feeling the music, the beat and moving your body the way you want to without any regrets and concern about those around you and what they have to say. I need and want to find more dance parties and raves to go to in Raleigh, as I absolutely love raving, using glow sticks and dancing to the beat. For those who haven’t gone to a rave I completely recommend this to anybody who is looking to have a good time and just wants to dance to music, see crazy lights and sounds and go all out.

24.) Talk more with women (not feel awkward or think too much about conversation)

I am not afraid to admit this at all as this is a faulting that I have been dealing with ever since the breakup as lately my self worth and confidence has gone out the window, pretty much thinking why would this girl want to talk to me? Why should she even want to dance with me? Why would she even want to interact with me and make me insecure and shy around many girls? Back in college and before things happened I would have no issue at all and would be able to begin conversations and continue the conversation without any issue at all and no I feel so shy and questioning about what I say, actions and over thinking being around a woman that I make things awkward and then seem like I am boring when in actually I can provide a great time, great conversationalist and just fun loving and want to just enjoy my time with the person.

25.) Stop being so fearful of life, things I do and possible outcomes of these actions –

THIS, THIS IS A HUGE PROBLEM WITH MYSELF. One reasoning why I am fearful about certain things in life is from what I have experienced throughout my life in terms of my family life (losing my grandparents, aunts, uncles and other family members), friends (2 of my best friends had cancer) and from ones who I thought I loved (deception). I am nervous about doing certain things and what the outcomes could come out of the situation and start learning to just do rather than to think of the outcome, the more I think about the outcome, the worried I become of actually doing the act and then lose out on great opportunities in life and that is the last thing that I want. I want to enjoy life to the fullest and take full advantage of what this world has to offer to me rather than sitting back and letting things slide on by.

Robertrogo
01-03-2012, 05:50 AM
26.) Regain my self worth and confidence -

To send off my resolutions and this extremely long list, one thing I lost beyond a shadow of a doubt is my self worth and being confident with myself. As many of you know the one thing that caused this issue was being cheated on by my ex of 4 years. This cheating caused me to think of myself less, as to why she would cheat on me, that I was less desirable and pretty much putting myself for everything. What happened and I will admit it and I AM TIRED ABOUT BEATING AROUND THE BUSH, I tried my best to instantly get rid of my sadness and feelings about the matter and be a man. As a man we are meant to feel that we are super strong, that we cannot feel sadness, heartbreak and loss and put up a shield to others so that they wouldn't know what had happened. I did this and internally it has been screwing with me COMPLETELY! It sucks but it was what I had to do and in the back of my mind I knew I was still sad but couldn't let this overcome me, but memories and everything kept coming back (how could it not when you shared 4 years of your life with somebody and lived with them for a whole year together, especially the final month of not knowing what was going on and being deceived the entire time). I lost who I was and it sucks, I put myself down more and more and when I go out with friends, meet a girl or meet new people, I think to myself, WHY would this person want to talk to me? WHY would this girl even think that I am remotely attractive? WHAT do I have to offer to these people? It sucks but I over think myself, my actions, my self worth and even think of what makes me even worthy to hang out and be with these people. I never realized that a heartbreak could do this to myself and that I was stronger than that (which I know that I am but let my emotions and feelings get the best of myself). But the one thing I want to is gain back my self worth, my self confidence and feel happy with myself and know that I am wanted in this world, stop being weary of who I am and just feel positive about everything that I do is benefiting myself, my worth and desire towards others. If a girl wants to talk to me, stop being so GOD DAMN SHY and be confident, be savvy and actually be somebody that they want to talk to rather than being that awkward son of a bitch who has to think about what they say before they even say it. I do this waaaay to much and it comes to the point where I come home at times or sit at work and instantly think about ... why in the hell did I just say that, why did I do that, I am sooo embarrassed with myself and then put myself down further (pretty much saying you stupid ass... you could have been much better with your approach but you screwed it up) I keep doing this to myself and it is not benefitting myself what so ever. So from this point my desire is to gain back that worth, that confidence where I can go into a group of people, introduce myself without any shyness or awkwardness, be a much better people person (back when I was the life of the party), carry a conversation with standing around feeling stupid and keeping my mouth shut and being the person that people want to hang around with and converse with. Bring that self worth up and feel much better about the person I am, the person I will become and what I have to offer to my friends, my family and my future significant other (when it comes to that point of course).

27.) Stop thinking about what I could have said after the fact and just say it, let my mind be free and no filter (Pipebomb!) -

As stated above lately I think about what I want to say, think about jokes and funny things and it really screws me up in my talking and speech to others. I think about what I want to say beforehand so when it comes out, I sound like a complete jackass and then the ones around me look at me like what did he just say? What the hell is wrong with this kid? Thus of course bringing my self confidence down and makes me not want to talk or converse (which is detrimental to myself). I want to bring back that non-filter I have for what I say, as back when I was losing weight, feeling much more confident with myself, back in college and around 18 years old I was saying things that were funny, that people were attracted to, was much more slick and savvy with words and comebacks and instantly could come up with things on the spot and now I stop, think before I say and act and I hate it. Just a natural reaction because now-a-days you don't want to offend somebody, you don't want to turn them off and away from you and you don't want to be socially awkward around friends or new acquaintances. I want to bring back that pipe bomb, that non-filter and say what makes me happy, to start conversations out of nowhere and be able to carry them further without any issues or having to think of what should I say next, is this the right thing to say? I don't want to sound retarded or awkward.

One person I have tried to channel is CM Punk and I know that you will say he is a wrestler and so forth but the thing is naturally this guy is a PHENOMENAL talker and legit has no filter for himself and that is what I want to do, want to be like and have no filter for myself between my mouth and my brain.

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28.) Embrace my unorthodox behavior and personality

That is one thing that I know I am and want to embrace even further is that I have an unorthodox personality and behavior, but want to use it to my advantage and push me further as a person and to make me happy with myself. One person who I was always inspired by and helped me realized my unorthodox behavior is Jimmy "The Rev" Sullivan, the recently passed member of Avenged Sevenfold, as this guy was BEYOND unorthodox, as he would be crazy, funny and wouldn't care what people thought of him and what he did but he was also kind, loving, caring and compassionate of a human being. He didn't care about himself but what he cared about what his friends, his family and his loved ones, which if you were to watch these videos you would never notice it but from things I have seen in videos, heard about the guy and everything, he was the warmest, kindest human being you would know and his love and compassion was for only his friends and those around him. That is the same exact way I am as I am crazy and do/say weird things which of course as stated is weird but it doesn't bother me at times and I absolutely love my friends, my family and those around me as I just want them to be happy, I want them to know I love and care about them and all that makes me happy in this world is seeing other's happy. I have always been that way and want to continue to embrace that to make me a better person and happier with myself.

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29.) Get more tattoos

Speaks for itself as I want to get more tattoos to go along with the heartagram I have on my left arm, I want to get a heartagram pelvis tattoo, begin my sleeve on my right arm with koy fish and a few others I am still contemplating.

As you can tell these are A LOT of resolutions for this year and things I want to work on for myself and to make myself happy. 2012 is a new year, a new beginning, a new Rob Rogo and I want to take full advantage of my life, take full advantage of my time and fulfill ALL of these resolutions, there is no CANT anymore, there is no more reservations and holding back in this year, it is full fledged going to be 110% going all out and taking grasp of my life and what I desire in this world, as one of my sayings is “desire means never quit” and I won’t quit until I have accomplished all that I have wanted to and then some.

This took a while to write up and letting a lot about myself out and about to everyone here and opening myself up which at times is difficult to do but want let my short comings out, my weaknesses show to work on them, to overcome these obstacles and achieve my dreams and desires and become the person I want to be, not this reserved, shy, quiet guy.

What are all of your resolutions for the new year? Do you have a lot or is there one singular one that you want to focus on and accomplish before this year ends?

Share them! And of course we will all support you and keep you on track to achieve your goals!

tjwood
01-04-2012, 10:50 AM
Wow you're certainly covering a lot of bases! Good luck.

You are crazy about the getting up early one though. Sleep is incredibly important.

Deviation
01-04-2012, 01:04 PM
Holy crap! That's almost one a week! Forget that. That's too much like work. ;)

BTW, I see the Freddy Kreuger sweater made it into one of your projects. :p

Robertrogo
01-04-2012, 01:26 PM
Holy crap! That's almost one a week! Forget that. That's too much like work. ;)

BTW, I see the Freddy Kreuger sweater made it into one of your projects. :p

Haha...yea... biting off a bit more than I can chew but as they say you gotta go big or go home, GOTTA GO BIG!

You son of a gun, keep ripping on me for that Freddy Kreuger sweater haha, yea that was one of the things, typically I would wear it while skateboarding or to work or something cause it works well with some darker pants and I like it but if I am going out places and stuff last thing I need is people singing

"1 , 2 Freddy's coming for you", yea that is going to make people turn and be like I'm out

Robertrogo
01-04-2012, 01:29 PM
Wow you're certainly covering a lot of bases! Good luck.

You are crazy about the getting up early one though. Sleep is incredibly important.

I appreciate it, thank you! Trying to cover what I feel that has been lost in myself and want to work on those aspects to help make me a better person going forward, probably over-analyzing but that is what I do haha

I tried a 5am wake up yesterday and damn that was hard as can be, but this morning I felt SUPER WIDE AWAKE at 5:30 but then I just laid in bed looked at the ceiling and was like...nope...nope...nope nope (like a boss)

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Deviation
01-04-2012, 01:44 PM
I tried a 5am wake up yesterday and damn that was hard as can be, but this morning I felt SUPER WIDE AWAKE at 5:30 but then I just laid in bed looked at the ceiling and was like...nope...nope...nope nope (like a boss)

5:30 is my "sleeping in" days. Try 4:00am a few days. ;) I'd love to sleep in some, but gotta do what ya gotta do. It's when I can fit my workouts in.

Robertrogo
01-04-2012, 03:14 PM
5:30 is my "sleeping in" days. Try 4:00am a few days. ;) I'd love to sleep in some, but gotta do what ya gotta do. It's when I can fit my workouts in.

I am trying to make my way to 4am, but stupid thing about me is that I go to bed around either 12 or 1am depending on what time I fall asleep on the couch. Wake up and feel instant regret and shame at 1am and just like damn... well 4 am ain't happening now haha

Could only imagine knowing that 5:30 is your sleeping in day haha, it has to be heaven from waking up at 4am and working out. More or less its do I want to lift weights and get my flex on at 4 or feel comfy cozy in the sheets hitting snooze until I finally drag myself out.


Every day when I get out of bed, I cry on the inside and turn to my bed and say "I'll miss you.... yes I know I don't want to go, we had such a good time last night but no worries, I will be back later" haha.

Gotta love/hate relationship with sleep because I don't want to go to sleep to miss out on doing things with my day but then when I get into bed I instantly feel satisfaction and on cloud nine, screw the day I WANT SLEEP!