It took me years to not fear the growth. I still fear it. We are always to lose weight but never told to grow and try to reach our generic potential. It still feels wrong eating so much and getting fatter but you have to think long term and what your end goal is. Strong lean and muscular and you can't grow without bulking. A string muscular body means a better metabolism. Lots of luck from a fellow buckeye and hoe to see progress pics!